Releasing the Past

This morning was particularly hard for me. I know the right things to do, but don't do them. I haven't done well Monday through Wednesday of this week with being healthy.

Anyway, after my journaling, prayer time and Bible reading this morning -- I went to my bedroom and got on my knees and just started to pray - it was a simple prayer, "Lord, make my mind clean!" I repeated it over and over with no emotion or attachment. I stayed in that position and kept repeating - Lord, make my mind clean.

All of a sudden I started to cry, then that turned into sobbing. I am reading Lord, I want to be whole, by Stormie Omartian - just started it. The first step is Releasing the Past. I won't go into the whole book, but basically I decided to do what the author did in the first chapter.

1. Write down all my past un-confessed sins - pray for God to reveal those to me {take about a week to do this}
2. Fast and Pray for God to deliver me from them ~ to not let me be in bondage with them, ask others who have my best interest at heart to pray for me at the end of the week.

Now, you will have to read the book to get more detail. I am not explaining the whole thing up to this point. But, basically I have been forgiven for those sins because of Jesus Christ death on the cross ~ But I have lived right in the middle of the things from which God has liberated me from. The bondage that accompanies each sin must have a point of severance through confession. Whatever I confess before God will release (clean) me from the bondage that accompanies it.

Now as for the fasting and praying ~ I so desire to deny myself and place God at the center of my life, which absolutely breaks any stronghold Satan has on me and destroys the bondage resulting from sin.

One of her examples in the book of un-confessed sin was like carrying around heavy bags of garbage. The heavier they get, the weaker I become - until I am crippled under the weight of it all.

I sat down and wrote three mini note book pages and am still going ~ all throughout the day God has brought un-confessed sins to my mind and I write them down.

Pray and ask God if this is something that could help you - get the book Lord, I want to be whole and let me know how it goes.

In Christ,
Sandra